Through My Window

Don't want much, I just want everything
Thought that I could, do almost anything
One step in front of the other
Thought that I could do it alone

In the blink of an eye, it's just another day
Telling me why, I'll find another way
Got this feeling, got me reeling
I can almost start believing

Now there's me and you
And we are not alone
You and me, me are together now
Through my window, I can see there's
More than you and more than me

Me and you, And we are not alone
Different view, We are together now
Through my window, I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real

I see a spark, it starts a fire
Is this the one worth waiting for?
Thought that I could do it without you
Can't exist like this anymore

Now there's me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now

Through my window, I can see there's
More than you and more than me

Now there's me and you, you and me
We are not alone and we are together
Through my window I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real

my Territory....

from the previous post,i did mention that i really need my own space, my own territory..and this morning, when i woke up, i really feeel that i really wanna have my own territory so badly..so that i won't disturb anyone and people won't disturb me either..haha.

~mahu berlari2 di tepi pantai  dan bermain ombak~

faster....faster

oh my god....

i really need my own space, my own bed, my own room, my own territory right now..

so sad that i can't coz everything hasn't settled yet..

hate to be in this situation, but i can't avoid it..

oh time, now i need u to run faster than usual..

if only u could..

Tak faham

dah byk kali aku terfikir psl ni..sejak dari skolah rendah dulu, aku byk dpt tanggungjawab yg aku rasa mcm serius xpercaya..but it happened..it's real..aku pernah ckp psl hal ni kat someone 6 yrs ago..dan aku rasa org tu x akan baca blog ni.haha..selalu terfikir, why me? aku bajet org lain yg dpt position tu..itu skolah rendah..time skolah menengah pn sama..skali lg perkara yg sama terjadi..oh my god..bkn sng nk pgg jawatan ok..besar tanggungjawab tu..dgn diri sniri satu hal, dgn org sekeliling satu hal..mayb self esteem aku agak lemah kot..suka fikir yg aku xlayak dan selalu ambil kira apa org lain akan kata..aku bkn lah jenis yg selalu ckp, "who cares"..aku jenis yg cares every single thing..haha.ssh gak tuh..iyela,bila pgg sesuatu jawatan tu, mesti org tgk kita dgn high expectation..perfect.tapi manusia mana yg perfect kan..manusia jugak xboleh lari dari tanggungjawab..itu aku pasti.kalau org dah percaya dgn kita, kenapa kita xboleh percaya dgn diri sendiri rite..itu satu hal lg..but org lain hanya tgk kita dari dasar..deep in our soul, we know who we are..and we know that we are not good enough for sth..dan satu lg jugak, for me, in certain thing, it's hard to say NO when it is NO...help me.

New Year

happy New Year 2010..walaupun agak dah terlewat sikit,tp xpe kan..wish aje la..bila ckp psl new year, mesti akan ada org yg tnya,apa azam tahun baru? erm..bkn ke setiap hari kita mesti ada azam yg baru..jadikan hari ini lebih baik dari smlm, hari esok lebih baik dari hari ni..

dah lama aku x update blog ni..dah berhabuk, bersawang dah..biasa lah, pulang bercuti di Malaysia, internet terhad sikit..mls nk menyusahkn diri..lgpn xde mood lah nk on9 lama2..wat keje lain lg best..

on the 1st Jan 2010, aku dan Ayu sambut new year dlm flight..tepat 1203 am, flight selamat mendarat kat Wellington airport..Alhamdulillah, selamat..sejak 2 menjak ni, byk terfikir psl mati..yela kan, time kat Malaysia, dlm paper hari2 ada cite psl accident itu la, bunuh la..hilang suami, hilang tunang, parents, anak, adik, dan sebagainya..huhu. al Fatihah utk semua mangsa yg beragama Islam..ajal jodoh pertemuan di tgn Tuhan..sbb tu, time nk berpisah ngn sesape pn, esp yg tersyg la kn, air mata ni nk aje kuar..ada yg dpt tahan, ada yg x dpt..biasa lah tu kn..takut plak..i'm afraid of losing somebody..mayb sbb tu kot..

bila sampai je di bumi Palmy yg katanya berawan dan nyaman ni, perasaan bercampur baur plak..dgn homeless nye, jobless nye..fuh..sib baik ada membe2 yg nk tumpangkan..tapi sampai bila?bila nk dpt keje ni?bila nk settle psl accomodation ni? 2010 for me, tahun yg agak mencabar..mungkin byk dugaan..mungkin..since this is my final year as an Engineering student, aku kena pulak decide apa final year project yg aku nk buat..nk kena decide apa elective yg sesuai or meringankn bebanku di final year ni..nak buat decision adalah perkara yg paling aku lemah..selalunya aku akan ikut je apa yg dah ditentukan utk aku..bab2 nk memilih ni yg ssh..sbb aku ni akn byk fikir..so,it will take time..dan bila dah wat sesuatu decision tu, kadang2 akan xpuas ati pulak lpas tu..haih..cmne ntah nk jd org yg x complicated nih..huhu.yg aku harapkan hanyalah petunjuk dari Allah...semoga 2010 akan menjadi tahun yg terbaik utk kita semua..amin..

Don't judge a book by its cover

10th Nov 2009..trip to Hastings and Castle Point..trip to hasting was smooth but to Casstle Point, agak penuh liku..sifat manusia biasa, bila dah dalam kesusahan, akan lebih mengingati Allah..so,this is a few story about our journey dan apa yg kami dapat sedikit sebanyak..

perjalanan penuh liku..at first, ada 2 options yg kami boleh pilih, either nak lalu jln yg kami nmpk jauh dlm map, or shortcut..tp tu dlm map lah..kami xde gps..hehe.tp, rupa2 nya penilaian kami salah sama sekali..jln yg kami pilih, which is the one that we assumed the best, shortcut was worst..dgn gravel road, so perjalan agak slow dan x smooth..xde kereta langsung yg lalu..ade la 1 2 four wheel drive yg lalu dgn lajunya..so agak challenging lah kan..tiba2 kami rasa sgt jauh lagi utk smpai ke destinasi. sampai satu tahap, level keyakinan kami agak kurang, so we decided to turn back our car to the beginning.cuba bygkn after few hours journey, kami nak patah balik through jln yg sama yg xde org except sheeps and cows..omg! tapi, itula org ckp, if we are doing something, kita kena yakin dgn keputusan kita tu..jgn dah sampai tgh jln baru nak menyesal dan berfikir utk patah balik..don't turn back if u feel u can find the light at the end of the road..cewah =P lagipun, kita ada Allah..so kita tawakal jela..kita mintak doa supaya diberikan petunjuk dan ditetapkan hati kita..nk dijadikan cerita, bila dah patah balik sikit dlm 3 minit, kami stop dan berfikir..sbnrnye jln yg kami lalu td tu dah betul.so just go ahead instead of turning back which will take some times..so kami patah balik semula.haha.kat sini, kita boleh tgk yg skill dan kepentingan membuat keputusan sgtlah penting..alhamdulillah, Allah tlg kami..dlm setengah jam kemudian kot, kami jumpa jln bertar semula..and happy faces dan tenang kembali di riak wajah kami..:) and the result after kesabaran dan tawakal kami was the very beautiful, amazing place yg sy asyik ckp nk stay over for a night..tapi xdilayan..haha.tmpt tu sgt tenang, dgn laut yg seluas luasnya menampakkan betapa hebatnya kuasa Allah s.w.t..subhanallah..

Here are some pictures as the prove..

otw back juga ada cabaran sikit..kami bertolak dah dekat senja since nk tgk sunset kat tmpt tu..it was very beautiful..cabaran time blk tu takut minyak abis tgh jln..kedai minyak kat situ dah ttp..next town xnmpk2 pn lg..so,agak cuak lah..kalau xsempat sampai,terpaksa lah bermlm dgn biri2 kt situ..huhu.

dlm kereta, satu topik dibincangkan..and it comes to my mind after that..sifat manusia biasa, tend to judge people by her/his appearance..physical..siapa kita utk judge org tu baik, org tu jahat, org tu xlayak itu, org tu layak ini..layak ke kita utk judge org lain bila diri kita sendiri pn sering melakukan kesalahan kan..nobody is perfect..kita bukan malaikat atau nabi yang maksum kan..semua manusia sama di sisi Allah..cuma yg bezanya iman..walaupun dari luaran, fizikal, kita tgk org tu nampak baik..tapi kita pasti ke yg hati dia, iman dia sempurna? org yg kita nmpk jahat, kita pasti ke yg hati dia x elok, iman dia xsempurna? siapa kita utk menilai? Allah yg pegang hati setiap manusia. Dia saja yg tahu kelemahan, kelebihan kita..siapa kita utk menilai? lagi pun, semua org ada kelebihan, kelemahan msg2..even di kalangan sahabat2 rasulullah s.a.w pn, x semua boleh jadi mcm saidina Umar yg kental, saidina Usman yg pemurah dgn harta and etc....so, mcm tula..back to the basic question..siapa kita utk menilai org lain kan..

cctv

one paper done!alhamdulillah..3 more to go!ganbatte!

when i looked at the ceiling in my room,i saw a smoke detector with the small blinking lights on it..then i was thinking how if it is a cctv!haha..just nonsense..sumtimes, we never realised that cctv Allah is always with us..sometimes we just forget about it..and sometimes we just ignore it!and He also has the examiners who always record our daily routines..what we did..what we think..what is in our mind...and they also give the scores!!IF we can always aware about that!!

With Him are the keys of the unseen, the treasures that none knoweth but He. He knoweth whatever there is on the earth and in the sea. Not a leaf doth fall but with His knowledge: there is not a grain in the darkness (or depths) of the earth, nor anything fresh or dry (green or withered), but is (inscribed) in a record clear (to those who can read). 
[Surah Al-An'am; 6:59]