being active or passive?

sometimes i think i am over excited into something..but they are all good things..so,it's ok for me to get over excited right?i'm not doing sin i guess..and i'm just make someone else job easier i guess..deep in my heart, i use one principle.."if not you,who else"...it sounds like "poyo"...i know...but it's NOT! i just do whatever i can, not beyond my capability..but, i know that some people might not really comfortable with tht..even myself, i don't really like people to become over excited of something that i'm involving..kadang2 rasa macam orang tu 'poyo'...orang lain cool je,buat x kisah, apa nak jadi,jadi..apsal kau yg nak lebih2 pulak..so,is that what people might think when i act like that..yeah maybe..but who cares about what people think?who?me sometimes..the backside of me..trying to eliminate it..but it take sometimes..

rezeki tak datang bergolek

i thought i am big and mature enough..but i'm not..i'm still young and still doesn't have faith in myself. i'm not confident enough if i have to go out there and start hunting for the job at this moment..i am scared of failure..i am scared of loosing things..i have low self esteem..that's it..i always think negative..oh come on!wakey2..i am big enough..some of my friend already finished studies and they are working now..some of them have got married..oh come on!

me: i am sorry sir. i don't think i can do the job since i am not good at bla3...
sir: bla3....even if u go outside after u finish ur study, u will learn the skill when u are doing it..
me: err okay sir..

p/s: now i realized that not everybody are gifted and talented at doing something..they will learn it when they are doing it...doink!

ku tak tahu

aku tak tahu la..
buat apa semuanya jadi tak kena..
ke sana ke mari semuanya tak kena juga..
mana diri ku yang sebelumnya..
adakah itu masalahnya..
entah lah..

semakin hari semakin lain jadinya..
mungkinkah itu tandanya...
mungkin juga..
entah lah..

semakin hari makin berperasaan jadinya..
kadang2 jadi tak beperasaan pula..
nak kata bulan itu,tidak juga..

entah lah..
apa nak jadi jadi lah..
aku berserah..

kaca vs permata

kadang2, kita rasa permata tu adalah terbaik utk kita dan kaca tu tidak bernilai bagi kita. siapa yg tahu yg sebenarnya di dalam permata tu ada rekahan yg boleh merosakkan permata tu dan mungkin mencederakan kita..kaca yg disangka tidak bernilai lebih baik dan bertahan lebih lama dari permata tersebut. kita mungkin hanya menilai dari sudut luaran tanpa kita sedari yang pilihan kita adalah salah. life is about making choices. once you stepped into a cave, u can either walk till the other end of the cave (it it has two ends) or u can quit and return. if u are half way through it, and u find it is harmful for u, u can stop 4 a while, and then make a strategy to face the problem. in this case, if u r brave enough and u think u can fight it, then do not quit. there will be a solution for u if u are working hard for it. at the end, what ever happen, do not regret and do not blame anyone else. u r responsible for the decision that u make.  “Allah tidak akan membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya" (2: 286)..

O Allah! I seek Your guidance (in making a choice) by virtue of Your knowledge, and I seek ability by virtue of Your power, and I ask You of Your great bounty. You have power, I have none. And You know, I know not. You are the Knower of hidden things.

pesanan

" Setiap kamu adalah pemimpin dan kamu sekalian akan ditanya perihal kepimpinan kamu. Seorang Imam (ketua) adalah pemimpin dan dia akan ditanya mengenai kepimpinannya. Seorang lelaki pemimpin keluarganya dan dia akan ditanya mengenai kepimpinannya. Isteri adalah pemimpin dalam rumahtangga suaminya dan dia akan ditanya mengenai tanggungjawab kepimpinannya. Seorang khadam atau pembantu rumah adalah pemimpin harta majikan dan dia akan ditanya mengenai kepimpinannya. Seorang anak adalah pemimpin harta bapanya dan dia bertanggungjawab mengenai kepimpinannya. Maka setiap kamu adalah pemimpin dan setiap kamu akan ditanya mengenai kepimpinannya. "(Hadith riwayat al-Bukhari, Muslim, Abu Daud, al-Tirmizi dan Ahmad)

Life is all about choices

xde keje, so berangan je keje..normal la tuh..what's in my mind right now is what will happen in the future..ok let's say after graduation, where i'll be..what i'll be doing..after few years, where i'll be..who i'll be..with who?haha.byk lah..am so excited to know but it will remain secret kan..kita hanya mampu merancang tapi Dia yang lebih mengetahui semuanya..everything dah tertulis..fuh, rasa excited yet nervous to know the result..life is all about choices and secrets..ada teman yg akn berkahwin..i just can't believe when she said she'll be someone's wife less than a month..i can't imagine if i were in her place right now..of course la not ready yet..tapi tula,semuanya dah tertulis..dah mmg bkn turn aku pn lg..buat apa nk berangan..haha.saje je mengisi masa lapang..=P

Ukuran baju badan sendiri
Kita tepuk dada ini
Jika dah nasib kita jodoh
Gunung tak lari ke mana
Apa nak kisah mahu hidup
Asal hati baik mulia
Kalau dah memang jadi mungkin
Apa lagi nak dikata

(tiba2 layan lagu xpdc)

ok,skrg i feel better..probs sikit demi sedikit dah berkurang..and now i have to make a choice about my final year project..i got few choices, but to choose the best one for me is hard!!i have to consider lots of thing..my capability, time, and resources..and again life is all about choices..if u choose the best option, u'll be win..if not, u'll loose...istikharah lah..hope that i'll make a good decision..

elaun jpa xmasuk2 lagi..xpenah2 ada prob before this..and i'm near broke now!omg..ni pon xpernah terjadi nih..so,i've to do sumting..i've no saving!sgtlah xbijak kan..i shud at least start saving since 1st year!hurm..some people will say, the guy shud have saving at this age, but i think that girls shud also do so..not just for kawen, but for everything lah..omg omg omg!hopefully everything will run smoothly this year..

enjoyable moment!nak mandi pantai lagi..thanks guys for the gud time =D

mood yg xbaik

semua benda yg aku buat sejak 2 menjak ni jadi xkena..bila mood x baik, nada penulisan pun bila orang baca macam xsedap.mcm nk marah je..apesal la aku ni..:( xberniat nak berbuat begitu..berlaku tanpa disedari..i need strength..maaf kpd sesape yg terlibat.bukan niat nak menyusahkan orang lain..but i've got no choice..