sabar itu indah

sabar?mmg sabar itu indah..tapi untuk bersabar tu,cukuplah susah..nk berlapang dada..org ckp mcm senang, tapi kadang2 tu ssh jugak..tau jela kan syaitan selalu je ada untuk cucuk..tarik nafas...lepas...tarik....lepas...kadang2 tahap kesabaran tu pn ada hadnya..klu asyik bersabar, sampaikan diri dipijak, melampau lah rasanya..kadang2, nak mendidik diri jadi seorang penyabar tu mmg challenging..tambah2 lagi org ckp,time2 mcm ni lah..darah muda..sentiasa nak menang..tapi bak kata peribahasa, api tak boleh lawan dengan api..die kena lawan dengan air..so,time tgh marah tu,amik lah air sembahyang..syaitan tu pun api jugak..so,sedikit sebanyak, api kemarahan bolehlah dikurangkan..eh apa kaitan xsabar dgn marah pulak kan?ade la tu..klu marah2 tu,xsabar la tandanya tu..sakit hati pulak mcm mana?bila sakit hati tu,lebih kurang x berlapang dada lah..apa jadi kat dia, dia xdapat terima kenyataan, so sakit hati..ape ubat sakit hati?istighfar..astghfirullah al azim..kesimpulannya, saya nak melepaskan perasaan di sini..haha.=P

missing part

at this moment, in this small room, in the silent moment, i feel something is missing..

deep in my small heart, i miss some people who are very supporting, sporting, caring, rocks, what else..haha.. i miss my sisters in Massey who are currently in Malaysia..:(( at that time, even though we were not in the same batch, we r still closed together..well, we were in a small group at that time..so our bond was very strong..u guys are also very sporting!!u guys rocks!!that's all i can say..as people always say, we will appreciate something when it is gone..well,it's true..hurm..to kak elun, kak nabil, kak nad, kak yusma, kak hani, wenli,meksu,qisu,kak zura, kak lela, lala, hana,if u read this, i just want u to know that i miss u guys so much..hope to see u guys soon..=)

being active or passive?

sometimes i think i am over excited into something..but they are all good things..so,it's ok for me to get over excited right?i'm not doing sin i guess..and i'm just make someone else job easier i guess..deep in my heart, i use one principle.."if not you,who else"...it sounds like "poyo"...i know...but it's NOT! i just do whatever i can, not beyond my capability..but, i know that some people might not really comfortable with tht..even myself, i don't really like people to become over excited of something that i'm involving..kadang2 rasa macam orang tu 'poyo'...orang lain cool je,buat x kisah, apa nak jadi,jadi..apsal kau yg nak lebih2 pulak..so,is that what people might think when i act like that..yeah maybe..but who cares about what people think?who?me sometimes..the backside of me..trying to eliminate it..but it take sometimes..

ku tak tahu

aku tak tahu la..
buat apa semuanya jadi tak kena..
ke sana ke mari semuanya tak kena juga..
mana diri ku yang sebelumnya..
adakah itu masalahnya..
entah lah..

semakin hari semakin lain jadinya..
mungkinkah itu tandanya...
mungkin juga..
entah lah..

semakin hari makin berperasaan jadinya..
kadang2 jadi tak beperasaan pula..
nak kata bulan itu,tidak juga..

entah lah..
apa nak jadi jadi lah..
aku berserah..

Hero

i am now stuck at the state that i,me,myself have created..
there is no turning back for me i guess..
unless there are some miracles that He will show to me later on..
just be patient and be a gud girl..
i'm afraid if the decision that has been made will affect my future..
ya Allah, aku berlindung kepadaMu dari rasa sedih dan gelisah..
dan aku berlindung padaMu dari sikap pengecut dan bakhil..
dan aku berlindung padaMu dari cengkaman hutang dan penindasan orang..