insyaAllah

"Allahumma inni a’udhu bika minal hammi wal hazan. Wa’a uthu bika minal a'jzi wal kasal. Wa’a udhu bika minal jubni wal bukhl. Wa’a uthu bika min ghalabatid dayni wa qahrir rijal.

-Ya Allah, aku berlindung kepadaMu dari perasaan resah dan gelisah, dari kelemahan dan kemalasan, dari sifat pengecut dan bakhil, dan dari tekanan hutang dan penindasan orang"

How many left?

Tertarik dengan satu penyataan ni:

3 perkara yang boleh menghancurkan umat yang paling kuat adalah zalimnya pemimpin, berpecahnya rakyat, rosaknya wanita [Mustafa As Sibaei]

Tiba2 aku teremo pagi ni gara2 topik tersebut..haha.apekah..mungkin tgh buat research dan menulis report berkenaan dgn 'next generation networks' kot..ape kaitan topik in Advanced Telecomm dgn kemaslahatan masyarakat hari ini?hahaha..entah..tapi aku banyak terfikir psl next generation lah kesimpulannya..i am not saying sape2 good,or sape2 bad ok..but this is general..mari sama2 fikirkan..=)

I am touched

MashaAllah..I feel very touched after watching a video from youtube..I nearly cried..O Allah,I really wanna be like that..hopefully I will..inshaAllah..

(QS. Al-Anbiyai': 89).

I am proud

I like it when people know me as a Muslim without asking me 1st..this is because of my appearance..I cover my head..yes I am a Muslim..

The different things of being a Muslim in a community that the majority is non-muslim is that when u walk through the road, people will see u in a way that they are judging u..perhaps, it is just my feeling..I know..but,it is good when u feel like that..so,if someone is judging u, u will show the best from u..I guess almost everyone knows that a woman in Islam has to cover their body except face and hands. they will also know that Muslims are very obliges to the rules and regulations as stated in the Quran.. pray five times a day, fasting during ramadhan and sometimes on Monday or Thursday, do not drink alcohol, gambling, eat pork and etc..

so,being here, outside my own community, i feel that i wanna show to them that I am a good girl, do good deeds, decent, well discipline and smart..i really don't like it when they see me as weak, gross, bad and all those bad things..this is different when i was back in Malaysia, where there are so many Malays or Muslims, and there are some malays do bad things, so people won't care about u anymore..how u behave and etc..

one more thing come in to my mind recently..in the faculty of engineering at Massey, i can see almost half of the postgraduate students and lecturers are Muslim!!during a program held by the IET two days ago in a lecture room, I felt so proud when I saw almost half of the lecture room was filled by Muslims!how great it was..but i feel a little disappointed when the awards for the top students were not belong to any Muslim including me!a best friend of mine got it..well, she deserved it..I envy her..she works hard everytime and she doesn't wait to the last minute to do things..she is well organised..I feel happy for her but at the same time, there was a little disappointment.. I won't be able to show to the people in the lecture room that a Muslim, with her head covered, manage to study well and being awarded!well, I have to work harder I guess..however, if the same thing happen when I was back in Malaysia, I won't really care I guess.I don't even being awarded as the top most student back in my high school..so what's the matter now... here comes the difference

what we call life

sejak dua menjak ni,saya selalu terfikirkan tentang masa depan..saya selalu bayangkan diri saya berada di tanah air tercinta sekarang..dah xsabar nak habiskan degree di sini mungkin..ahh,sikit je lagi ni (akan keluar nasihat2 sebegitu bila saya berkata demikian)..semoga semuanya berjalan lancar..saya dah xsabar nak lihat apa episod hidup saya selepas ini..mungkin itu..mungkin ini..hanya Dia saja yang tahu rencana kehidupan ini..kita hanya mampu merancang..

sejak dua menjak ni jugak,banyak dapat berita2 yang mengejutkan dan menyedihkan..orang itu pergi,orang itu sakit..adat kehidupan, bertemu dan berpisah suatu kepastian..pada yang terlibat,banyak kan lah bersabar dan berdoa..berita2 yg saya terima sedikit sebanyak terkesan pada saya..sy selalu memikirkan perkara2 negative..oh pls syaitan...jgn ganggu sy lah utk fikir yg bukan2..smoga semuanya slmt..sy mungkin xkuat utk menerima berita2 yg mengejutkan spt itu..huhu..

oh ada lagi satu berita yang baru saya terima, ada kehadiran ahli baru dalam keluarga saya..kakak saya baru menimang puterinya yang ke tiga..tahniah dan alhamdulillah semuanya selamat..semua perempuan nampaknya setakat ini..itu pun satu lagi phenomena..banyak baby perempuan yang lahir..lepas dpat je berita kakak saya dah deliver baby, mak dan ayah terus tempah tiket bas untuk je johor semata2 nak jaga kakak or anak dia yang lain,since yg 2nd tu masih kecil..saya terharu bila dengar mak dan ayah terlalu bersemngat..sanggup travel jauh2 dari penang ke johor,demi anaknya..itulah pengorbanan ibu dan ayah..dari situ,saya terfikir..mampukah saya jadi seperti mereka? walaupun mereka tidak berpelajaran tinggi, tapi cara mereka mendidik anak2, tunjukkan contoh yg baik, sy bersyukur..i love them..♥ ♥

sabar itu indah

sabar?mmg sabar itu indah..tapi untuk bersabar tu,cukuplah susah..nk berlapang dada..org ckp mcm senang, tapi kadang2 tu ssh jugak..tau jela kan syaitan selalu je ada untuk cucuk..tarik nafas...lepas...tarik....lepas...kadang2 tahap kesabaran tu pn ada hadnya..klu asyik bersabar, sampaikan diri dipijak, melampau lah rasanya..kadang2, nak mendidik diri jadi seorang penyabar tu mmg challenging..tambah2 lagi org ckp,time2 mcm ni lah..darah muda..sentiasa nak menang..tapi bak kata peribahasa, api tak boleh lawan dengan api..die kena lawan dengan air..so,time tgh marah tu,amik lah air sembahyang..syaitan tu pun api jugak..so,sedikit sebanyak, api kemarahan bolehlah dikurangkan..eh apa kaitan xsabar dgn marah pulak kan?ade la tu..klu marah2 tu,xsabar la tandanya tu..sakit hati pulak mcm mana?bila sakit hati tu,lebih kurang x berlapang dada lah..apa jadi kat dia, dia xdapat terima kenyataan, so sakit hati..ape ubat sakit hati?istighfar..astghfirullah al azim..kesimpulannya, saya nak melepaskan perasaan di sini..haha.=P

missing part

at this moment, in this small room, in the silent moment, i feel something is missing..

deep in my small heart, i miss some people who are very supporting, sporting, caring, rocks, what else..haha.. i miss my sisters in Massey who are currently in Malaysia..:(( at that time, even though we were not in the same batch, we r still closed together..well, we were in a small group at that time..so our bond was very strong..u guys are also very sporting!!u guys rocks!!that's all i can say..as people always say, we will appreciate something when it is gone..well,it's true..hurm..to kak elun, kak nabil, kak nad, kak yusma, kak hani, wenli,meksu,qisu,kak zura, kak lela, lala, hana,if u read this, i just want u to know that i miss u guys so much..hope to see u guys soon..=)

TIDAK PERNAH BERI SUMBANGAN

Di sebuah kampung, seorang penghulu mendapati salah seorang penduduk kampungnya yang bernama Lamin tidak pernah membayar tuntutan bulanan kampung. Lamin memang terkenal dan merupakan salah seorang yang terkaya di situ. Penghulu mengambil keputusan untuk berjumpa dengannya.

Tok Penghulu: Selamat pagi Encik Lamin.

En Lamin: Selamat pagi, ada apa pagi-pagi datang ke mari Tok...?

Tok Penghulu: Begini, saya telah mendapati bahawa hanya Encik Lamin seorang sahaja yang tidak pernah menyumbang untuk kampung kita. Encik Lamin ni kan seorang yang kaya dan berjaya, saya rasa tiada masalahnya untuk sumbangan yang begitu kecil bagi kemajuan kampung ini.

En Lamin: Adakah tok tahu ibu saya sedang sakit dan memerlukan banyak wang untuk mengubatinya?

Tok Penghulu: Waduh, kalau begitu...saya tak tau plak..

En Lamin: Tok tau tak saudara saya seorang veteran perang yang kudung serta buta dan memerlukan biaya perubatan?

Tok Penghulu: Kalau begitu, saya minta maaf.

(sebelum tok penghulu selesai meminta maaf, En. Lamin memotong dan menambah)

En Lamin: Tok tau tak suami kakak saya sudah meninggal dan dia meninggalkan isteri dan 3 anaknya tanpa harta dan warisan?

Tok Penghulu: (sekali lagi tok penghulu cuba untuk meminta maaf).

En Lamin: Jadi, pendek kata mereka pun tak pernah saya bagi sumbangan. Inikan pula nak bagi sumbangan untuk tok.

me need u

"when i say i need you, that means you are important in my life. If I just ignore you, maybe it means that it just not this time"

being active or passive?

sometimes i think i am over excited into something..but they are all good things..so,it's ok for me to get over excited right?i'm not doing sin i guess..and i'm just make someone else job easier i guess..deep in my heart, i use one principle.."if not you,who else"...it sounds like "poyo"...i know...but it's NOT! i just do whatever i can, not beyond my capability..but, i know that some people might not really comfortable with tht..even myself, i don't really like people to become over excited of something that i'm involving..kadang2 rasa macam orang tu 'poyo'...orang lain cool je,buat x kisah, apa nak jadi,jadi..apsal kau yg nak lebih2 pulak..so,is that what people might think when i act like that..yeah maybe..but who cares about what people think?who?me sometimes..the backside of me..trying to eliminate it..but it take sometimes..